Building the World You Can Actually Live In

A straightforward account of why I stepped away, what changed, and where NEXUS is going next.

For most of my life, I moved through environments that were too small for the way my mind worked. School, university, work—it all had the same predictable structure, the same narrow logic, and the same demand that you shrink yourself to fit the frame. I didn’t struggle with the content or the pace; I struggled with the point. When you can see the underlying mechanisms of things, the performance becomes hard to tolerate. People call that “giftedness” or “ADHD.” I call it being unable to pretend that bullshit is meaningful.

After finishing my master’s degree, I tried to play along with the professional world like everyone told me to. On paper it looked fine: good opportunities, good income, a clear path. But underneath it was the same empty architecture I had already walked through for years. A bigger office is still a box. A better title is still a label. The whole thing ran on routine, shallow incentives, and a constant pressure to treat trivial tasks as if they mattered. I could do it, but it drained me in a way that had nothing to do with exhaustion and everything to do with dishonesty.

So I did the only thing that made sense: I stepped out. I didn’t burn anything down, I didn’t make a dramatic exit, I simply stopped pretending. I moved away from the noise and gave myself the silence I needed to think without interruption—even if that’s only clear to me right now. People always imagine that isolation is depressing. For me it was the first time life made sense. When you remove external demands, you can finally see which thoughts are yours and which ones were installed by the system you grew up in.

That period wasn’t an escape. It was a reset. Once the pressure of performing disappeared, the core questions became clearer: What do I actually want to build? What kind of people do I want to work with? What kind of world do I want to contribute to? And most importantly, what version of myself is actually real when no one is watching? These aren’t dramatic questions—they’re practical ones. If you never answer them, you end up living a life that belongs to everyone but you.

Now I’m in a different phase. Not going back to the old system, but re-entering the world on my own terms. And I admit, it’s difficult to remain grounded at all times. I don’t need the structure, but I do want alignment. I want collaboration with people who think in concepts, who see through surface-level bullshit, who don’t need hand-holding, and who don’t get intimidated by complexity. People who aren’t interested in playing the usual societal games because they know exactly how empty those games are.

This is also why NEXUS exists. It’s not meant to be another polished “community” or a feel-good brand. It’s a convergence point for people who operate differently—people who navigate by clarity rather than habit, and who don’t want to waste their time with the usual clichés that dominate business and personal development. NEXUS is built for people who want to create something that actually matters, without being dragged down by the noise of people who are content with mediocrity.

I’m not claiming to have everything figured out. But I’m done pretending that the standard pathways make any sense for people like us, let alone that others know what’s best for us. There’s nothing noble about fitting yourself into a structure that was built for mental models you don’t share. And there’s nothing wrong with stepping out, rebuilding your perspective, and returning with a level of intention you didn’t have before.

If there’s a theme to all of this, it’s simple:

Stop negotiating with systems that don’t fit you. Build the environment you actually function in. Then invite the right people into it.

That’s where I am now. That’s what I want to do. And that’s the direction everything I create will follow.

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On a Closing Note

If you’ve been following this work from the days of Callosom or Mavericks, this is the point where the split ends. Both projects were two sides of the same idea anyway—one focused on the internal shift, the other on the external execution. NEXUS is simply the version that doesn’t pretend the two can be separated anymore.

The new website/store is live: TheNexusFormula.com. Ron’s books are available there (the digital ones that is). The mentoring track is open for people who actually want to work, not just talk. Nothing fancy, nothing inflated—just the essential structure that’s needed for people who operate the way Ron and I do and the way many of you do too.

We’re also preparing a digital seminar—call it a one-hour masterclass if you want a label. It’s meant for people who are standing in the same threshold I’m standing in: aware enough to see the 3D-script for what it is, but not fully settled into the 5D mode of operating. Most people like us don’t need therapy or another productivity course. We need alignment. We need a coherent explanation of what we’re actually experiencing, so we don’t interpret clarity as confusion or sensitivity as dysfunction.

This seminar will cover that transition and make the entire thing practical instead of abstract. More details will follow soon. We haven’t decided yet if it will be free or priced; it depends on how much infrastructure we need around it. It won’t be expensive. The point is the transmission, not the transaction.

For now, this is the reset.

This is the beginning of the NEXUS singularity in its real form.

And if you resonate with this direction, you’ll understand exactly why it had to start this way.